THE TAGS

After making all my Christmas cards last year I was left with a few left over sticky tabs, about 500 to be exact!!! I really did not have a clue what I would do with them but I loved the colours. So being bored one day and tidying up my mess I found them and thought, I know what to do…

AT THE CROSSROADS

On finishing a huge chapter in my life I now have a new journey to take… I think? Radiotherapy is now the big question. I must admit I do not know how to answer. Chemo was something I had to do, there was no question about it but Radiotherapy to me seems to be a risk either way. There is no win win answer in this situation. If I have the Radiotherapy there is a small chance I may get a secondary Cancer at a later stage and if I do not have the Radiotherapy there is a small chance that I may relapse. But to me consultants seem to appear divided on this issue. I am unclear in which direction I will follow but I am starting to realise that cancer, whether I go into remission or not, will always unfortunately be a part of my life. 

I would like to say thank you to the people of SHEDS UNLIMITED www.shedshop.co.uk for helping me with my strange request. They cut to size the wooden pieces that made my hat and gave me the pieces for free. 

PLAY-PLAX CHIC

Clearing out the loft last summer I came across some old toys that I used to play with; one of them being Play-Plax. I just fell in love with them all over again so what better way to spend a Sunday afternoon than to put them on my head.

THE MENDI

This is something that has been on my mind for a long time and I am so pleased that I have finally been able to do it. My earliest memories of using Mendi/Henna is of sitting in front of the television when I was younger and drawing on my skin with Mendi on my legs, arms and hands and ending up with an amalgamation of designs and prints all over my body. I just remember having to do P.E at school and the teacher just staring at my legs and arms instead of watching what everyone was doing. To be honest I don’t know how I am not tattooed all over! But in case you were thinking I was not able to do this but rather my Aunts Jayu and Poppy spending at least 2 hours drawing on my head only for the Mendi to not actually take. It was so unfortunate that the Mendi didn’t stain but it’s just another excuse to do it again! Sorry Jayu and Poppy round two is just around the corner!!!

THE EYELASHES

Sitting in the Doctors lounge waiting for another appointment way back in June I knew deep down that the news was not going to be good. Finding an eyelash on my cheek I put it on my finger and gently blew it away with a wish. On that day I started something that I have been doing ever since. There is something hopeful about knowing that when there is nothing more you can do you can wish it better. As a child I did this for good luck as many of us did wishing that school would be closed or extra pocket money. It was a bit of fun, a bit of wishful thinking. As I started going through my treatment and meeting people at different stages of their treatment many people had a little faith in something whether it be a necklace, broach or pin something to hold on to when things got tough. As my hair fell out so did some of my lashes. I think I did most of my wishing then, well there were so many, but it must have worked as most of my lashes and eyebrows stayed in. It’s now January and I’ve had the blood test and the PET scan and today is the day I meet my consultant and find out what my future holds. Just do me a favour, next time you find an eyelash make sure you make a wish.

THE NEW YEAR

What a relief. I can now breathe. I thought that 2010 was never going to end and it couldn't have started any better. I am so pleased with my first hat of the year. A hat of party poppers and a head full of party string and the reflection of the great outdoors in the window is an indicator of where I will be this year. After six months of sitting on my bum I doubt I will be indoors for long. I love how my head looks like it is in the clouds as that is pretty much me at the moment. A new year, a new me maybe? we will soon see...

TO A DEAR FRIEND

Instead of a card this year I have decided to do something a little special!