Wednesday, 2 February 2011


On finishing a huge chapter in my life I now have a new journey to take… I think? Radiotherapy is now the big question. I must admit I do not know how to answer. Chemo was something I had to do, there was no question about it but Radiotherapy to me seems to be a risk either way. There is no win win answer in this situation. If I have the Radiotherapy there is a small chance I may get a secondary Cancer at a later stage and if I do not have the Radiotherapy there is a small chance that I may relapse. But to me consultants seem to appear divided on this issue. I am unclear in which direction I will follow but I am starting to realise that cancer, whether I go into remission or not, will always unfortunately be a part of my life. 

I would like to say thank you to the people of SHEDS UNLIMITED for helping me with my strange request. They cut to size the wooden pieces that made my hat and gave me the pieces for free. 


  1. Another powerful image, quite scary, to be honest. Because it shows the heaviness that weighs on you either way. I hope you'll find an answer and strength to trust. whatever your choice will be.

    i know it probably sounds strange from a complete stranger, but I really wish I could help you carry the weight. So instead I just wish you countless hands to help carry you and all others in their quest, their sadness and courage, their insecurities and strength.

  2. My younger brother had the same cancer you do (he's been in remission for a year now), and I remember the 'radiotherapy/ no radiotherapy' decision he had to make. it's an incredibly hard decision and im sorry its one you have to make.

    On a slightly lighter note, I absolutely love the blog- what a fantastic idea!! (And how lucky, that you have a great shaped head ;)

    Much love (and strength),
    You're never alone


  3. I know I get told all the time how lucky I am about my head shape. I've heard it so many times it must be true!!! haha I'm glad that your brother got through and is at the other end of this horrible disease. I've recently been thinking about my future, I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's a nice feeling.

    Well thank you again for sharing your thoughts, I really appreciate it.