Tuesday, 28 June 2011

R.E.M.I.S.S.I.O.N




Well I didn’t even make it past my 1st scan! Everything had been going so well, too well in fact that I simply did not have enough time to add to my blog! I had made my hat, taken my pictures and was ready to sit down and write my thing about how amazing it was to reach the biblical word REMISSION but as soon as I heard these energizing words I was off, I was away, doing those things I had suppressed for so long! I went on holiday to Valencia to see my cousin whose wedding I had missed earlier that year. I found myself a job as a freelance pattern cutter. It couldn’t have been more perfect I could work from home, do it in bite size pieces and have a job that challenged me. I met friends and you know I actually went on a night out! I can’t say that I have done that in a while! But then my 1st scan came around the corner and I just new that something was up. I can’t really put my finger on it though I just knew that something would be wrong. I worked and reworked my collage but it did not look right until I placed my fear in the scene.  I mean I felt fine I was out and about and starting to get on but my fears were realised when I was told that my scan had showed a new lump in my chest! I literally stopped breathing!

On the plus side my chances are 50/50. It may not even be Hodgkins’ but a gland that has been irritated by the intense radiotherapy that was based on that area! My next step is to have a biopsy! I will have an operation that will go through my chest and unfortunately break a rib. My fingers are crossed but I am just pissed off! Can everything that I have worked so hard to get back be taken away so easily? Has the bubble burst...

7 comments:

  1. Hi Maya, I've been following your blog and really admire your wonderful creations! They look great. I am so sorry to hear your news. I really hope they tell you something more positive at the results of the biopsy. I know waiting for results is the most worrying thing ever, especially as hospital things seem to take forever. I'll be thinking and praying for you. Mairead x

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  2. Oh Maya - so sorry to hear your news. Finger & toes crossed for you that you get the result you so deserve. x x x

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  3. I don't think I've commented before but I want you to know that I really love your blog. It was your beautiful and artistic creations that brought me in and your dedication that I admire so much. It amazes me that you are able to keep it up as you work through this journey in life.

    All the best <3

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  4. Maya, you are such a fantastic soul. Please keep positive. You can and will beat this. xx

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  5. Maya I am so sorry for you.I pray to god that you will recover soon.Maya never give up.Actually we can do anything impossible if we really believe.Now I am following you and inviting you to check out my tiny
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  6. Maya, just had a read to catch up on your wonderful blog. This probably doesn't need to be said, because this blog alone proves how strong you are, but don't give up, keep thinking those creative thoughts and stay strong! I'll be thinking of you, and see you on another night out in the near future! Wooo! x x x

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  7. Thank you for your wonderful comments. Yes I must keep going and stay strong!! i've got my fighting gloves back on plus a manicure! Thanks for your support and see you in the next post. M

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