MY FIRST TATOO

I have made my decision… I have decided to have Radiotherapy. I was nervous at the prospect of having this treatment as I knew it could lead to other more serious cancers. Also I did not know enough about Radiotherapy to feel happy with what I was going to put myself through. There was only one thing for it I had to start talking to people and start researching. I had to make a decision that I would be comfortable with. Though at the start the more advice I seeked the more confused I got but by talking to different people I realised my condition in a way was unique, like no other. Although someone may be diagnosed with the same disease their bodies react differently, you could say individually, to the treatment. I had to feel confident about my decision, to feel that I had understood my next step and knew what it would entail. This was a hard decision but when it came down to it I had to have faith in my Doctors opinion.

The first stage of Radiotherapy was to get a tattoo! Well three in fact. This would show where the radio beam would be directed. Now don’t start getting ideas. They are not massive arrows or treasure map crosses but tiny dots no bigger than a pin prick on my chest and under my arms. They help the Radiographers to position me in the exact same way for every treatment. My treatment takes place Monday to Friday everyday except for weekends. The treatment will last one month, which is 22 sessions of Radiotherapy. I am 14 session in so not long now!!!

Getting the little tattoo’s made me think about how my treatments had changed me and more noticeably how it has changed my body and skin. Though I have lost my hair (which is starting to come back as you can see from the photo) and gained a bit of weight these things will gradually go back to normal but there are changes that will be permanently with me. My three little dots got me thinking about how all our bodies tell stories through Scars, birth marks, tattoo’s, scratches and burns. Each are etched by time. They show your personal stories some good, some bad, some funny and probably some we would much rather forget. I do not quite know what I think about my marks yet but I know I am not the same person as I was a few months ago.

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READ ALL ABOUT IT!!!

I was in the local newspaper last Monday! How amazingly weird and exciting is that? I can’t quite believe it. They did a 2-page spread showing 4 of my hats. Because of this article I got in touch with people I knew years ago!!! My old tutor, my old class mates. I knew my blog would allow me to meet new people but I never knew my blog would put me back in touch with people. What an unexpected surprise!!! Oh and on a completely different note you can probably see my hair is starting to come back. It is still a little sparse but it’s coming!!!

A MINDY MOMENT

This is the fabulous illustration done by my friend Mindy. I absolutely adore her illustrations and if you get a chance check out her website; http://www.wix.com/mindyrosenettles/illustration and if you really love it, like I know you will, you can even check out her blog; http://mindynettles.blogspot.com/ Good times. 

WHEN BELLE MET THE QUEEN

Well fellow blogger Hayley of http://www.londonbeautyqueen.com/ that is. We were just talking about each others blogs when I made the comment that knowing me if I had all that make-up I wouldn’t wear it I would just put it on my head! It was just a joke obviously but it sounded quite fun at the same time. So when you wake up to a package containing 3 eye shadows, 1 mascara, 2 eye liners, 1 nail varnish, 1 lip gloss and 1 lipstick you can’t help but have a good day! I must give a word of warning though, please be careful when getting close to other bloggers… you could end up having more fun!!!

THE TAGS

After making all my Christmas cards last year I was left with a few left over sticky tabs, about 500 to be exact!!! I really did not have a clue what I would do with them but I loved the colours. So being bored one day and tidying up my mess I found them and thought, I know what to do…

AT THE CROSSROADS

On finishing a huge chapter in my life I now have a new journey to take… I think? Radiotherapy is now the big question. I must admit I do not know how to answer. Chemo was something I had to do, there was no question about it but Radiotherapy to me seems to be a risk either way. There is no win win answer in this situation. If I have the Radiotherapy there is a small chance I may get a secondary Cancer at a later stage and if I do not have the Radiotherapy there is a small chance that I may relapse. But to me consultants seem to appear divided on this issue. I am unclear in which direction I will follow but I am starting to realise that cancer, whether I go into remission or not, will always unfortunately be a part of my life. 

I would like to say thank you to the people of SHEDS UNLIMITED www.shedshop.co.uk for helping me with my strange request. They cut to size the wooden pieces that made my hat and gave me the pieces for free. 

PLAY-PLAX CHIC

Clearing out the loft last summer I came across some old toys that I used to play with; one of them being Play-Plax. I just fell in love with them all over again so what better way to spend a Sunday afternoon than to put them on my head.